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I’m there for people when they’re alone or need someone to talk to, but it seems that those same people will just abandon me when they no longer need me because they found something or someone better than me. I’ve always known that no matter how close I am to people, no matter how much I open up to them, it seems that those feelings are one-sided. Yes, there are those rare instances when the other party tells me something that they’ve never told anyone, but most of the time, I’m left out of a lot of things. I know I shouldn’t look to help others solely so others will help me back, but just being completely left out still hurts.
But of course they never know since I just wear a smile and walk it off telling them “it’s alright” whenever I find about a -secret- hangout or whatnot since I wouldn’t want to invite myself in whatever they were doing. I care too much about what others think and I don’t want others to think badly of me so I tend to just keep things to myself. 
I feel like a “rebound” friend. A friend you only go to in order to relieve stress and maybe hangout with once or twice since I helped you out, but then just abandons me after creating such happy memories. Then I’m left wondering what I did to make them leave me.
It hurts so much every time I come to this realization. The realization of how it seems as though I’m being used, yet I allow it to happen.